Dothe's Diary, 1777-1792
This is the diary of Dothe Stone Cutler, 1756 - 1803. The diary covers the period from 1777 – 1792, but it is not clear when she began to actually keep it. Her reference to Judea, Connecticut as Washington indicates that she didn’t begin writing it until after 1779 when the little community was renamed. The first actual entry after the tale of Joel Stone’s imprisonment is for December of 1781, so the diary was probably started some time around then.
The diary does not simply add an interesting facet to the biography of Joel Stone, it is a personal and family history on its own. While Joel’s exile was deeply on the mind of his sister, it was but one concern among many.
The writing is a mixture of thought-out vignettes and excited streams of consciousness. Every entry is a little snap shot of what was on her mind - not written for posterity - but for the moment and for the writer. It is sometimes a dull listing of where people were, but that was what she wanted to keep record of. She knew who these people were and what they meant to her, and therefore did not write descriptions of them. She was devoted to her family from both duty and affection. Even though the writing is unabashedly emotional, it is also deeply restrained. The etiquette of the times thwarted full explanations. There are points in the text where she alludes to some shocking piece of news, but because it was unseemly or too painful to write, we shall never know what these episodes were.
She was a deeply thoughtful and feeling person. From the perspective of the 21st Century, however, Dothe’s omission of some of the most important episodes in here life is odd. Dothe’s wedding hardly gets mentioned and is but one line in a list of the week’s events. She never writes of her pregnancies or child births. This was not uncommon for women of the period.
There is also a seemingly stunted, childish quality in her tone. Dothe never describes any affection for her husband the way she does for her siblings and she always refers to him as Mr. Cutler. Although she is 30 when she marries, it isn’t until this point that we see her use of the term “Daddie” give way to “Father.” This childishness was expected of her, and her deferential attitude to the men in her life is a testament to the patriarchal society she lived in. As she grows, however, her sentiments become more confident – writing her own life mottos and describing the joys and challenges of raising a family.
It also a significant source for what it tells us about someone who was evidently not concerned with the politics of the times. She never once mentions the war, battles, congress, the king or parliament. The terms Patriot or Tory are not found in Dothe’s Diary. Like so many people in the Revolutionary period, male or female, her world was a local phenomena centred on her family and friends. This world was turned upside-down and her family spread over the North Atlantic region. Her diary, in many ways, is an attempt to keep track of the movements caused by the upheavals in society.
The original of Dothe’s Diary is housed at The Archives of Ontario, and a transcribed version is available on microfilm, MS 519, Reel One, which is the source for this copy.
I have made no attempt to correct spelling or grammar. As much as possible I have not altered any punctuation which leads to some jarring, confusing or humorous lines. Some entries are out of place in the chronological order. This may be the result of entries being written elsewhere and then copied into the journal.
Dothe’s Diary
Joel Stone went from Washington to New York and joined the British Army 7th Jany. 1777.
I took the small pox in Washington 15th Feby. the same year I returned to Lemans some time the last of March. Daddies family all took the small pox at the time I came home except those which had it with me, which was Rene and Hannah.
Sometime in April 1778, Joel was taken on Long Island and carried to Fairfield gaol. He wrote to Daddy and he and Leman went often to see him. Rene went to see him sometime in June the 15th. Hannah and I set out to go to see him [missing line] Woodbury where so unfortunately heard through mistake that he was at Hartford, went from Woodbury to Farrington, slept there that night, next morning we went into Hartford, found he was not there; but I was informed it was likely we could hear of him at Col. Williamses at Weatherfield, we went there but were still unfortunate, could hear nothing from him we went to a public house where we heard he was at Fairfield, we were very tyred and further from him than when at home; but still determined to see him we went to North plain where we slept that night. The next morning we went to Newplain where we took breakfast and proceeded (1778 July 15th) to about 10 miles beyond New Milford where we dined at a [??] down little house after dinner crossed the ferry and went to Stratford, from there to Fairfield, we went beyond the Gaol to Mr. Demonds, we staid there till Mr. Woodruf went to the gaol to see if Joel was there. He returned, said he was there but unwell and asleep, we went up to the house where he was for he had the liberty of the yard.
He was walking, pensive and thoughtful backwards and forwards by the door. He was asleep when Mr. Woodruf went to the house and did not know we were in town till he looked round and saw us and said my dear sisters he could hardly speak and did not expect to see us, we went with him sat down by and he began exceedingly sociable, he got us wine and raisons and seemed anxious to divert us. Night came on he said he must go up stairs and be locked in prison. Oh, that dear brother. We went back to Demonds and cried ourselv to sleep. Next day Joel went with us to Doctr. Faughs where we dined and after dinner came back to the gaol with Joel, we told him we wished to see where he lived or rather was obliged to lodge, it was with reluctance he complied with our request and went with us where he slept or kept.
December 1781
Leman is now at Litchfield busying himself about some Society affairs. Last evening the Bethlem Bucks and ladies came in a day to Mr. [unclear] Harrisons, thensend for a fiddler gave my sister Huldah and I an invitation to go to the Ball,l we dressed and went late as it was, we had for company Charles Sheldon, John Feelings, Betsy Bellany and a number of other gentlemen and ladies. We danced, some placyed some and then we scattered. Charles Sheldon was here to-day he is very sociable, I dreamed the other night of being on a certain place where I had a full view of the [unclear] of Connecticut, the place seemed high where I stood, and the prospect good. I thought the groves looked green and the soil so far as I was judge looked rich and fertile, clear streams of water running from vale to vale.
Jan’y 20th 1782
Last Monday we had a visit from town in a slay, we drinked tea, then Leman sent for a fiddler, we spent the evening pritty enough.
We had an invitation to Candice Gibbs wedding which we attended last Wednesday. I had the honor of Docr. Thompson for a partner. [??] Chatfield waited on my sister Huldah and Leman waited on Elizabeth Gaunsey, Sweet Ireland. Fryday Leman went to Goshen in a slay. Huldah and myself went with him to Doc. Hopkins (Feb’y 3rd) Sunday, just night last week on Monday or Tuesday Leman Huldah and myself set out for Derby in a slay. Cold Weather. We went no farther than the lower part of Gosford and slept at Young Sam Hulls, we went next morning to Mr. Mansfields, from there to Capt. Wilkinsons where we took dinner. Leman left us there and went to Milford and Stratford the next day, we went up town took dinner at Mrs Lovels visited Mr. Humphrey just at night Leman came to us and went with us slay and horses across the river and through the snow, at length through a great deal of tribulation we arrived at David Deforists where we had good fires, good brandy, wine and [??] to, our company was not large; but we had good music which kept those few busier.
1782 Oct. 13th
Peter Sherman has been here two or three times within a week and staid two or three dayes at a time. He made Leman a pocket put it in his shirt and superscribed it to Leman Stone in his clean shirt he says he is going to be wicked and make up mouths at the good old men as they go by to meeting and set the dog on Mr. Benedict. Polly, Elisha Sheldon and a number of others here a day or two this week. Sister Huldah went to Daddies sometime in June last Sister Rachael gas lived with me ever since. A merry girl. Leman has been gone 8 days out of 10 for this 10 months past. The care of his house his building and his boy is no small affair.
Nov’r 10th
Sunday just dark, we I [?] on in the deepist [?] I could not be more lonely then at this present time. My two sisters Hannah and Rachael just gone from here. Leman is not at home. Alone indeed, a fine time for reflection something which I do not write so discomposes and disturbs my mind I can scarcely put two thoughts together, may a solitary evening compose my restless spirits. We that want forgiveness must forgive since tis certain that [?] as live have charity.
Sept. 7th 1783
Almost 10 months since I have wrote, I hardly know how I have spent the year past. Sister Huldah has been with me about 10 months at Dr. Hopkins, we have had more company the year past than any year since I have lived with my brother. It wants a bigger and better herd than I am mistress of to take good care of all Lemans affairs and my own too. Leman has been at home but very little within about 3 months in which time he has been gone very little. Sometime in July least Huldah, Leman and myself went to Dr. Sheldons in Washington, we staid there two days.
One evening Capt. Judson went with us to Woodbury. Leman left us there and Judson came home with us Saturday in the rain. Leman came home next Monday and went directly to New York where he found my unfortunate brother Joel surrounded I may say with all the misfortunes this life afford except sickness, he had been sick this 8 or 10 months past, but has now almost recovered his health, to ease if possible the distress of a feeling heart, he consented to take Joel’s wife home with him to stay till if she like the country till Joel went to England.
Oct. 17th
Dear Little Bill is gone. Leman, Bill, Black Bets and her child set out for New York this day and the wagon returned. Gad says Leman has put that good little boy Bill on board for New York and is returning home.
Sunday 19th
Baldwin was here last evening and her now. Leman is not home yet. Polly Boldre and Florrio Slept here last Thursday evening. Sister Hannah and Huldah are both here. Rachael at Daddies alone poor girl, I think of her.
Oct. 22nd Wednesday evening.
Just arrived at my Daddies where I find sister Hannah poor lonesome girl and I as lonesome as she.
Brother Leman came home last Monday evening, Racheal has just came over, and Hannah and Huldah both here. I got Lemans supper. Huldah combed his hair and he went to bed. Sunday morning Hannah carried Rachael to Doc. Hopkins, returned here drunk tea and went home. Mr. Guersey who had been here a long time talking of buying Lemans place at last, has bought it. Leman and Guersey came in to tea Tuesday just night which was the first Huldah or I knew of it. After tea Guersey went home. Leman came into the parlor and I said he had sold and asked where or how we should live. Said we must quit this house next day. We was too much affected to make him much answer, he went out but soon returned seemed concerned for us which hurt us the more, he told me he could give me his chairs, beds, tables crockery and [?] so kind I was affected could hardly thank him, though heaven knows my heart overflows with gratitude to him. I asked him where he was going, he said to the Southern States. Intend to go as far as Georgia. I asked him when he would return, he said not until next May. I asked him what business he would go into, he said he knew no better than I, hoped he would fall on some business that would maintain him. We talked some time, he went to bed. Huldah and I for the last time we were ever to sleep in that house, went to bed. This morning people soon heard we were going, and came in.
Huldah thought best for her to go to Dr. Hopkins for a few days. She went away just before noon. David Sweet came in went with her, then I was alone, only as people came in to see me, for Leman went early in the morning to Daddies. I was very busy putting up the things. Peggy, poor girl [unclear] through all these scenes I was obliged and did affect cheerfulness in my behaviour. I answered with a smile when my heart was ready to break. Guersey’s folks came in with their goods and family about noon Leman came back from Daddies said he had got a place for Peggy, people came in filled the house with confusion, it took me till almost night to put up our goods. I went just right into my once loved chamber. Not that I wished my brother not to tell me that was no place for trade, by which he sees me calculated and determined to live, I would not live there I had been [?] to leave a house when I so long has lived and had the whole care of not only the house, but all my brothers business, for he was gone great part of the time, to leave this and to leave my brother, with whom I had lived almost nine years, he had been to me a father, a brother and a friend, he had supported and directed me, to him [?] for relief and if in his power I did not fail to have it. Leman was going away to stay there some days to settle his affairs. I did not bid him good night, I could not, I knew it must affect me and I did not like his people would know my feelings. Gad came with me and I came home to my Daddies where I am now writing.
Oct. 23rd in the evening,
Sister Hannah is with me. Daddy spent this day and fetched the goods. We have been bust since the goods came.
25th Oct.
Leman has been here this day. I combed his hair he changed his clothes and went.
24th Oct. 1783
[Some entries do not go in chronological order. This might be a result of her writing on separate sheets of paper, then adding them to the diary]
One brother gone and another agoing. I am lonesome to a very great degree, nine years lacking 12 days I have lived with the nicest of brothers; how can I bear to part with him, none know what I feel here alone; nothing to do but think of my brother; but it is best I am sensible it is. I must submit, when come to open things. I found that Leman has sent me tea, coffee, chocolate and loaf sugar; generous even to his last shilling. I can never [thank?] him though I most ardently wish to do it, I asked Leman if he had ever heard from my brother Joel or not; he had heard nothing. I want very much to know whether he is gone to England or not.
Oct. 26 Sunday
I have been over since I wrote last packing up my brothers things. I have thus taken an inventory of all the articles. Leman I believe is at Doc. [?] Nobody here except Hannah and myself. I expect the [?] this week.
2 hours since I wrote the above just dark, Hannah and me have been down in my Daddies back lot where we found the graves of my Mamma, my oldest brother and my oldest sister, for they were buried in my father’s field; Oh could she see or know the many misfortunes that attend the family she once loved and left. Could she know what we bear? What we feel? It would be of too much for a tender parents feeling heart. She is gone. I hope it is well for her. I have reason to be thankful that I have yet one parent left who seems since I came here to endeavour by every little circumstance to make my life as comfortable as possible.
Sunday, Nov. 2nd
Sunday. Hannah is not home this week. I much expected her. Am disappointed, Leman was here Wednesday last, says he intends [?] a horse and cutter with me. I combed and cut his hair, he changed his clothes left me some shirts to make and went away.
Nov. 4th
Leman was here to-day. Brought a letter from Joel dated the 20th. Oct, last; which time he set sail for Great Britain. Hannah has just gone to Washington to procure if found the advertisement of the confiscation of his goods and accounts of the sale of horses at public auction, as there was some articles he could not take on account of when here himself. Has wrote to have Leman send them to him in England. Leman has bought linen to make him shirts, and I must go to work for he says he shall set out his journey next week.
Capt. Judson called here this morning, brought a letter from Huldah. She says it is uncertain when she shall come here, but thinks soon.
Nov. 10th 1783 Monday
Just done washing, Hannah returned from Washington Wednesday night. Polly Riegan came home with her. Leman was here Friday, I shall never forget the disagreeable news he told me. He changed his clothes and is now gone to New Haven, Derby and Hartford. Rachael was here Friday evening. Satterday morning she carried Hannah to town. Daddy went yesterday to church brought her home. She tells me Huldah is going to Springfield before she comes here, when I shall see her is very uncertain; but that I much want to see her is very certain, for I am completely lonesome.
Nov’r. 16th Saterday night.
Leman has been here to-day; is going to Hartford before he goes his long journey. I believe Huldah is gone to Springfield, though I do not hear from her. I went yesterday to South Farms, for the first time I have seen Lemans house since I left it. Nothing there looks like home, different furniture puts a different face on all that ever looked like home. I wanted to get away home, to my daddy.
Nov. 19th Tuesday
Huldah has come home this day. She did not go to Springfield as expected. Leman has been here this day, is gone to Hartford. He does not go his long journey until he returns.
Nov. 30, 1783 Sunday
Leman is not gone yet; has been here this two or three days, has been and now is detained on account of an ill state of health; but since he is much better it is likely that he will go soon.
1783 Dec. 3rd Wednesday early in the morning, very warm for the season.
Leman is gone to town. Huldah is gone to milking, the boys are gone to school. Hannah and I are in the North room, my Dad an old gentleman is in the other room with a large family of little likely children gathering round and looking to him for support. They are all pretty children, bit I think them very extraordinary, so discerning, so thoughtful and learned for a boy of his age and his advantages is rarely found, for he is scarcely 12 years old [??] last evening by reading to us in Virgil and seemed fully to understand what he read with how much Dido receives and welcomes the unfortunate when he arrived at the coast of Carthage, if her accents were equal to her words when she says Acquainted with misfortune I have learned to pity and to succour the distressed, it is not for me to express the greatness of the soul of real goodness of her heart, but what return ungrateful. Oh, a secret honor like slippery dreams is all we feel it all we know, may I have some respect to my [?] till my fate shall to misfortunes reconcile my soul and teach me how to mourn in secret and to put on the cheerful when I please.
Tuesday Dec. 19th in the morning.
Leman home about half the time for the week past. Mr. Hoss came here yesterday. Huldah and myself and Leman went with him in a slay to South Farms where we had a fine sociable time and returned at 10 or 11 o’clock at night. A fine pleasant evening. Leman is going this day.
Dec. 9th 1783
[again date is likely confused]Just at night Leman is just going. When O when shall I see him again. He bid me good-bye, he scarcely could speak to us. We could not speak to him. My aged parent bid him good-bye with tears into his eyes. It is enough I cannot write. I have no brother left. Both gone Joel to Great Britain, and Leman to Georgia. Late in the evening Daddy came into this north room this evening sat with Hannah, Huldah and myself. He said he parted with his son with reluctance, says his children or rather his sons, that are men are gone and he is an old man, indeed he has reason to mourn with us.
Dec. 10th
Late in the evening sitting and hearing Hannah and Huldah sing Turn Pilgrim turn thy [?] forego for earthborn cares are [?] wrong man want but little here below not want that little long.[??]
Virgil has changed for exile his sweet native home to seek a soil warmed by mother sun or by the same in a far distant clime, uncertain where his destined will give merit what she claims to merit, more than I can name but not more than I can wish.
Dec. 13th
Sister Huldah has gone to Dr. Hopkinses, and Rachael has come home.
Jan’y 17th 1784
Dr. Hastings was here this morning, said that Mrs. Sheldon, Dr. Sheldons wife, was supposed to be dying last evening, have not heard whether she is dead or not. Bear misfortunes with a grace, for which of us escapes it. How need the just, the worst of dangers fear.
Jan’t 22nd Thursday
Late in the evening sister Rachael went this day to Dr. Hopkinses, she wrote back by little Derrick. Doc. his wife and sister Huldah have not returned from Hartford. Sister Hannah and me are here alone in the North room.
Sunday 25th Jan’y
Not a word of Sister. The snow is gone; whether he home or not I cannot say. My little brother Stephen just returned from meeting. The last we heard of Mrs. Sheldon she was but just alive. To die is landing on some silent shore where billows never break or tempests war.
Sunday 15th Feb.
Huldah is gone to Bethlem to meeting in a slay. Mamma was put to bed a week from last Wednesday with her fourth and Daddies 10th daughter. Doc. Sheldons wife dies about a fortnight ago. Joseph Troop was buried last Sunday, a Guy Bishop was buried last Monday
Sunday 22 Feb.
Not a word do we here from our absent brother. Charles Sheldon, Doc. Billy and their sister Lucy was here last week. Sister Huldah and myself went yesterday to Doc. Hopkinses in a slay. Little Brother Stephen drove the horses; fine slaying and has been almost all winter. Sister Hopkins and Sister Rachael very glad to see us. I think it most probable Doc. Hopkins will go to Hartford to live, and I am sorry, Oh how we scattered. Oh my brother.
Feb. 25th 1784
Doc. Hopkins and Capt. David Judson came here on Wednesday in a slay. Sister Hannah went to Doc. Hopkins with them, are not yet returned. Salking was here when they came and when they went away, and like a fool staid here till just dark. Mr. Baldwin and Mr. Maggit of New Milford dined here this day; it is almost dark, I am in the north room quite alone. I wonder why the girls do not come home, late in the evening the girls not come. I have just done getting supper for a house full of little children, for mamma is unwell. Little Brother Stephen and Dan is all the company I have. I don’t hear a word from my absent brothers, they are gone. Alas they are gone. I forbear this is too much for me to forbear.
March 7th Sunday
Little Caty has been sick this 4 or 5 days. Sister Hannah very unwell has gone to Doc. Hopkinses. I have been doing housework all this week. Huldah and I in the North room. The little boys are gone to church.
March 10th Wednesday
Huldah and I have been spinning all day, very lonesome here in the North room. Sister Hannah and Sister Rachael at the Doc’r. The cows are come. I hear the calves, that ancient sound. Mammas little child is crying in the kitchen. What a scene.
Sunday April 5th
Doc. Hopkins and family are going to Hartford so soon as the roads are settled. Huldah and I have been spinning very busy this week, she went Thursday to Dr. Hopkins, will return next Thursday. God tempers the wind. Poor Mamma, All this does not erace from my mind, dear, my long absent brothers I wish but I cannot see them.
May 22nd Tuesday Morning
I came last Tuesday from Dr. Hopkins, had been there almost a week, they proposed moving to Hartford next day, but I have not heard whether they have yet gone or not. We understand Dr. Sheldon & family are gone up to Dr. Hopkinses house. It is now May, but not a word do we hear from our Brothers. I have been mending this morning.
May 6th Thursday Morning
My brother Leman came to our window late in the evening last Monday, called to us to let him in. His voice was so familiar to us, (what follows is from the back of a torn leaf) well but not likely soon he has a young son in New York about three weeks old.
May 15th Friday Just dark
Saturday Morning May 16th
Doc. Sheldon came here last Wednesday, sent for Capt. Morris and was married ednesday to my sister Huldah, she went home with him yesterday morning. Doc. Hopkins came here Thursday evening, he and Brother [are] gone to Litchfield with Doc. Leman will be here again in a few days, but we are very lonesome at present.
May 20th 1784
Sunday afternoon sister Hannah & I have been walking to the far part of Davis’ South lots, being very tyred, I lyed me down under a pretty push, I tied my long pocket handkerchief about my head, and took a stone for a pillow and [?] I rest more sweetly, while Sister Hannah sat by me making some excellent verses about the gracefulness of my appearance.
June 1st Tuesday
Just dark, it thundered loud, lightened sharp and rains fast. I am tired and going to bed; good-bye to cares.
June 3rd Wednesday Morning
Have just returned from Capt. Smidleys how I wander about and then come home and set me down alone. No sister, no brother. P.S. 69th, 13th, 14th; but as for me my prayer is unite thee, Oh Lord in an acceptable time, O God, in the multitude of thy mercies, hear me in the truth of thy salvation. Deliver me out of the mire and let me not sink, let me be delivered from them that hate me, and out of the deep waters. 17th. Oh, hide not thy face from thy servant for I am in trouble. 18th Draw nigh into my soul and redeem it, deliver me because of mime enemies. 20th I am full of heaviness.
June 7th Sunday just noon, very warm indeed.
Sister Hannah went last Thursday to Dr. Sheldons to live. I am alone indeed and feel it sensibly. Brother Leman came here from Hartford on Friday; brought letters for me from Sister Hopkins. Rachael is at Springfield Leman went from here yesterday morning, is not at Dr. Sheldons, none here but poor lonely me. Alas, how can I sing? Alas, how can I sing?
June 16th Thursday Morning
Dr. Upson came here Friday last week. I went with him to Doc. Sheldons
June 30th, 1784
I have just had time to milk the cows since I returned from picking straw-berries down my Daddies north meadow. I went and picked alone till the sun went down; a pleasanter night I never saw. I am now sitting and writing by Lemans desk in the North room. The moon shines pale and pleasant into the south door; Daddy is gone; the children some asleep some awake. Mamma is singing to her dear little Polly in the middle room, she has a fine soft voice.
July 3rd Sunday afternoon.
Brother Leman has gone to Vermont. I went to Washington last week with Dr. Sheldon. Sister Hannah came here yesterday, went to church with the little boys. I am sitting where I can see the front of Daddies good green meadow; the weather is like my spirits, cool and serene.
[Dates become out of order. They may have been written on loose-leaf and then collected together. I have left them in the order they appear]
August 1st 1784 Sunday Morning in the North room
Brother Leman is returned from Vermont and is gone to New Haven. We received a letter last week from Brother Joel dated London, April 30th 1784. He is well, but his business is such that it is not likely he will return till almost a year from the date of his letter. I received yesterday letters from sisters Hopkins and Rachael. I wrote to them last evening. Rachael is homesick poor girl.
Sept. 26th 1784 Sunday morning. Sun half an hour high, pleasant weather.
Daddy returned last evening from Williamstown. I returned from Dr. Sheldons last Wednesday, had been there for 8 days. Sister Rachael came then from Hartford the night after I got there with Mr. Noah Webster and went home yesterday. I believe she will stay at Hartford this winter. Brother Leman has been to New York the month past, was here last week, is now gone to Derby and New Haven.
July 24th Saturday Night
I am now at Dr. Sheldons in Litchfield. I have been down since last Tuesday. Have made several agreeable visits in town the week past. Polly Judson has been here this two or three days; but is gone home to-day. She is a good natured careless girl, she has but a few serious hours she passes her time with very little reflection and as little penetration. We hear nothing from Brother Leman since he was to Vermont; it rains very fast. I’ll bid pale care good night and go to bed.
Sunday Morning
I have been sitting this fine cool pleasant morn at Doc’t Sheldons south window reading in while sister Sheldon and Sister Hannah are busying themselves about breakfast. I hear the bell ring and toll 43 times for the death of Capt. Dicson in the East part of the town. He died this morning, and left a disconsolate widow with a large family of young children; she depended entirely upon him for support. I heard the solemn sound and said with [?] where he observes. Like leaves one generation drops and another springs up to fall and be forgotten. Dr. Sheldon is dressing to go out and visit the sick. Of my little brother Stephen comes to church, I shall go home to-day; just night.
Wednesday Morning July 28th
Still at Dr. Sheldons but am going from here this morning. Monday Mrs. Buel, Mr. Buel, Mrs. Tracy and some others was here yesterday with Sisters Sheldon and Hannah and me went to Esq. Baldwins thimble berrying; we went into the woods and got wet by the shower. After the shower went in dried out clothes drank good dish of tea & returned home by Gen’l Walcotts. The ladies treated us with politeness the short time we staid. We called on Dr. Buels where we had the pleasure to see a number of gentlemen and ladies dressed as gay as gaiety itself. Dr. Sheldon was there, came home and played on the violin till I went to sleep. The above was wrote at Dr. Sheldons and could not be placed regular with the date in this book (From July 24th to this date)
28th August 1784 Sunday, just dark at Daddies
This week went to South Farms with Brother and others, we eat water melons till it rained, so we slept at Elisha Harrisons and went to Dr. Sheldons next morn. Stoddard drank tea here yesterday says Dr. Sheldon, and Huldah are going to Hartford this week then I shall hear directly from sister Hopkins and Rachael. Rachael is going away alone. How much I want to see her.
August 29th Monday Night
Just returned from attending Rhoda Stoddards funeral. D.D. Belleme preached a good sermon from the words “And it is appointed unto man once to die” Hab. 4th & 7th, like leaves we fall. Tuesday evening about 9 or 10 o’clock, I am both tired and sleepy, but dare not go to bed on account of the thunder. Mammas little Polly has been sick all day, but is now some easier. Oh, my sisters, when shall I see them? Rachel, poor girl [?] and lonesome too, cares and fears surround me more.
Sept 2nd Saturday night
Sister Sheldon just gone from here, is going to Hartford next week. I am alone, and just going to bed.
Oct. 22 1784 Saturday night
Brother Leman went from here this morning, is going next Monday to New York to take up goods bring them to Derby where he is going into trade with Mr. Gracey, Capt. Humphrey, he will live at Gracies. Sister Rachel has been up from Hartford. Doct. Sheldon and his wife are now gone to Hartford.
Sunday Nov. 6th 1784
Sister Sheldon and little Daniel was here the week past, staid two nights. I had a letter yesterday from Sister Rachel at Hartford. It is pleasant, almost too pleasant for me to stay at home, but meeting is too far away for me to attend.
Wednesday Nov. 23rd
Just dressed and ready to go to Dr. Sheldons, waiting for little Brother Dick to come with my horse, we hear from Brother L. often, but nothing from Brother Joel since the last of June. Sister Hannah I hope will come home with me.
Dec 10th 1784 Saturday Night.
I went to Dr. Sheldons last week on Friday and did not return till this week on Thursday when Mr. Cutler came to Dr. Sheldons, my sister and myself came with him to my Daddies. I was married to Mr. Younglove Cutler of Watertown. We received a letter last week from Brother Joel dated Sept. 1784 in London. I am now sitting by the fire in the North room. Bro. Stephen is home and Dan looking over him and closely attending to the story. Sister Hannah is just undressing for bed and I’ll go too. Bro. Dan is reading the tragedy of [?] he is all attention to that pathetic story. Tis a pit such a fine genius should not be improved.
March 6th 1785
I am now at Watertown, I came here the 25th of Dec. last have not been to my Daddies since. I went to Mr. Stones funeral in Northbury where I saw Mr. Champion of Litchfield who preached a sermon at the meeting house, he informed me that Sister Sheldon had a son born last week the day I do not know.
Mr. Cutler and Rachel are just gone to meeting and all the rest of the family except Porter & myself, Dr. Hopkins and his wife came here about 3 weeks ago, they brought Rachel and left her here. Sister Sheldon came to see me a few days after I came here. My Father my Brother Leman and Sister Hannah have all been to see me. We do not here anything from Brother Joel.
Monday Evening March 21st 1785
Mr. Cutler and Porter both bust in the shop. Sister Rachel sits by me reading, she is clothed in dark calico, her head draped very pretty a handsome cushion and plae flesh colored ribbons; we hear Sister Sheldon has a fine little boy about 10 days old. It is late and I am tired.
April 24th Sunday Evening
We hear nothing from Joel, I have been to meeting to-day and heard Mr. Grindley preach, was at Litchfield about 2 weeks ago, at which time Mr. Cutler was at New York.
July 3rd 1785 Sunday Morning
Rachel is dressing her [?] close by me, Mr. Cutler is yet not up. I have been to Litchfield once or twice since I have wrote. Mr. Cutler has been to New Yok and Leman has been here. He brought a letter from Brother Joel dated London, March 1785. He informed us of his health and that his business is such tis’ uncertain when he will return. His wife and Billy are at New York, his youngest child is dead. So we scatter, Joel at London, Leman at Derby, Rene at Hartford, Huldah at Litchfield, Hannah at Daddies, Rachel and myself at Watertown, Daddy an old man on a large farm with a large family of little children. It is time for breakfast and I must go down. Sabra has milked the cow and put on the tea kettle.
Sunday Sept. 17th 1785
11 o’clock the family all at meeting but myself and Mr. Cutler and he is asleep, it has rained very fast all night, but now it is exceedingly pleasant. Sister Rachel went about 10 days ago to Derby with Mr. Cutler, she is returned on account of Sister Hopkins sending a horse for her from Hartford. She went yesterday to Litchfield with Dr. Bronson and is going from there to Hartford. Brother Leman is very busy as one of his parteners Capt. Humphrey’s has lately died, which throws much business into his hands. We hear that there is a letter at Daddies from Bro. Joel, but have not the particulars. Sister Sheldon & Mrs. Buel was here some days ago.
Sunday May 28th 1786
After meeting Mr. Cutler is asleep. Porter is reading.
Sunday Aug. 19 1787
I am surprised that I have wrote nothing in this book so long except the two lines above, since my little girl was born, now seventeen months old. The dear little girl asleep, the rest of the family at meeting. I have no Sister with me. We are anxious about Brother Joel, have heard nothing from him since last Sept. and then we was in Canada. Leman at Derby so is Rachel, Hannah at Litchfield teaching a school. I was at my Daddies, Mamma was very unwell is gone to the Pool Poutin; has been sick a long time; is getting better and now gone to New York. Patience Abbott came to live with us about 3 months ago, my brother Dan came here in March last, he staid a few months and went home. Sam’l Sheldon has been here about 2 months whether my Brother Joel has any family with him or not I am not certain, but rather think he has.
November 4th 1787
[unclear name] has been [unclear] the small pox is expected home this week and nothing certain from Joel. Mr. Cutler at New York; Leman and Rachel at Derby; Hannah at Litchfield.
Sunday, just evening Nov. 28th
We have late and pretty good news from our long and absent brother; he is settled in a new town called Johnstown up the river St. Lawrence; we rejoice to hear he is doing very well; Sister Hopkins was here last week five or six days, she is gone home to her dear little girls and to Rachel, poor girl she is very unwell; I am distressed for her she is very weak; Sister Hannah is now with me.
Jan’y 28th 1789
More than a year since I have wrote. Sunday after meeting (Jan. 25th 1789) Hannah is at my fathers, Rachel at Litchfield, Leman at Derby. Our family is large; Potter and Sam Porter & Patty the workingmen & Phillis beside the dear little Nancy belong to the family so large. A family requires the strictest attention, but it seems worth attention. We heard from Joel Stone, and hear that he is doing well,; but he is so far off, I fear we shall never see him more before that have the slender health; my father grows old very fast in body, but much brighter in mind. He has so large a family he will not be long able to direct them. I am concerned for him and for them but this like everything else teaches us not to depend on ourselves but on him alone who is able to direct our every step.
Feb’y 22
Stephen Stone Jr. set out to ho to Canada fourteen days ago. I do not blame him for going, yet I am sorry he is gone, he had more integrity of hear than is common to young men of his age, yet he is young, too young to wander so long abroad. My heart is with him.
Oct. 15th 1789
My brother Stephen returned from Canady. Brother Joel has at last parted with evil ---- She came down to Albany with Stephen, and he put her on board and paid her passage to New York. Brother Joel has sent for one of his sisters, Hannah or Rachel to go and live with him and take care of his dear little children, Billy and Polly. They are not yet gone, we have heard from him and expect him here very soon. Leman slept here last night. Stephen is gone this day to Derby to take care of a shop of goods fro him and Capt. Lewis. We all wait impatient the arrival of our long lost or absent brother. We hope to prevail upon him to leave that distant wilderness and come again to live in his native country to better himself and his friends.
March 16th 1784
A number of us went to Mr. Buels to supper some winters ago. Polly Hopkins, my brother and myself as we sat at supper it fell to Sam’l Sheldon to carve. He took up a rib which was taken out of the pork and very impolitely tho very innocently said that was such a thing as woman was made of. Yes, said Polly Hopkins, it was taken out of such a creature I would not give a cherry stone to boot.
Jan. 30th 1784 Wednesday Morn.
Miss ------ dreamed last night of seeing deep and clear water and being told that a certain man has a house under the water in which he lived, notwithstanding the appeareance of impossibility. I believed it to be so, a couple of young ---- came to me and told me they would conduct me to the house, as they did I found the house dry as if there has been no water near. I thought no more of the water but went in and with the two young women wandered all about the house. In an upper apartment saw a woman that had the appearance of about 40 years not handsome or very homely; she had a young child. I bowed to her, she bowed to me and took her child and went out. I asked her if that not the gentleman’s wife, they said it was a stranger, so seemed did not know me; they told me the gentleman was coming at a distance from the house and when he came, I knew he would know me. I went down to the room to meet him, but found it was another man. I then set out for home, but before I came to my house I found I had left my whip. I went back and as I went I saw a number of gentlemen looking out of the window all strangers to me. I found my whip, and bid a negro fetch my horse, but he would not obey me. I went my horse led him alone up and down over rough and smooth. Pensive and thoughtful as I went till I awoke. So much for dreams. I remember when I lived with my brother about 4 years ago I wrote it down but have lost it that I dreamed I [?] a country alone from one end to the other. I thought I was dressed in Turkish ladies dress and was conducted by an elderly lady who was kind to me; but I did not know her, she was a stranger.
Wrote Jan’y 18th 1784 Story.
Three young students walking one day for exercise, they espied an old gentleman at a distance coming towards them; they said one to the other when the old gentleman comes to us we will have some sport with him; accordingly when they met him, one steps forward and says good morning Father Abraham, the next said good morning Father Isaac, and the third said good morning Father Jacob. The honest gentleman replied “I am neither Abraham, Isaac or Jacob; but I am Saul the son of Kish, I went out to seek my fathers Asses and so here I have found them.
Dear widow be wise and let thy sweet eyes upon an Alderman tenderly shine, a lap dog or parrot a coach or chariot and twenty fine things shall be thine.
Mr. Divits motto on his coach: “Remember thy father & thy fathers friend.” Dothe Stones motto upon her coach “Poor is the triumph over the harmless deer” another “O may we never seek to sooth the throbbing passion into peace” “None but the feeling heart should tarry here” “Forbear.”
Jan’y 18th 1790
Some time in October last Dr. Sheldon was taken sick with fever; on his recovery Sister Rachel and Sister Sheldon were both taken with the same fever. I went with them to stay, but a little while, but found them so very sick I did not return in twelve days. Sometime in October last Sister Hannah was married to Capt. Lewis of Black Rock in Fairfield. Capt. Lewis is now gone to the West Indies, does not expect to return till next summer. Leman lives in the house with Hannah so does Stephen at present, for he is in their business. Stephen was here yesterday, tells me Joel Stone is expected this winter, I can only hope and wait. Mr. Bacon of Woodbury has attached my Fathers farm on the old bond given by my father to Bacon when my brother Joel Stone went into partnership in trade with him, it a long and tedious affair, I fear the consequences, yet could justice be done I should not fear but the law.
Sister Rachel is at Litchfield, we shall fetch her the first snow. Little Anna playing about me while I write in a warm room by a good fire.
Dec 24th
In the evening Sister Rachel sits close by me reading in Young’s light thoughts. Mr. Cutler at the shop. Little Anna in bed, Brother L. was here last week spent a sociable evening. Dr. Woodruff, Mrs. Curtiss and other, Brother Dan was here last night.
April 18th
Sister Rachel went this week with Brother L. to Fairfield, carried her clothes and expects to make her home there. Mr. Bacon has withdrawn his action respecting the bond given by Father and paid the cost.
October 8th 1790
Mr. Cutler and myself set out for New York made as far as Mr. Datons in Derby before we dined, then to Mrs. Humphrays where we drank tea. Mr. Cutler took the horses to Mr. Howds came back to Mr. Humphrays and she went with us to Bill Mansfields about 8 o’clock in the evening. Brother Leman came in told us Sister Lewis was there and went back to Mrs. Humphrays; next morn it rained fast and it being Saturday we all, except my brother, staid till Monday morn. Sister Lewis went home to Fairfield, Mr. Cutler and myself to New Haven dined at Miliser went aboard the [?] from [?] Monday P.M. arrived at New York Tuesday morn 10 o’clock. Had on board a number of passengers 5 or 6 ladies none sick but myself, we put up at Mr. Sweeps, I see Mr. More but did not speak with him. Drank coffee and went out from shop to shop, was introduced to a number of gentlemen of Mr. Cutlers acquaintances among which was Mr. Chiles Curtis, returned to dine. Mr. More came, spoke to me asked if I had forgot him. There are a number of young gentlemen boarding here, they are now eating supper; but as I drank tea late I had rather write than eat beside I do not like late suppers.
Wednesday eat breakfast at our lodgings, dined at Mr. Herrings, a very genteel house; Mr. and Mrs. Herrings very sociable, a number of young ladies from Fairfield very well, to our lodgings just dark Thursday walked, went to the City Hall house a building sufficient for me to consider of without attempting to describe it; received a polite invitation to dine with Mr. Glovern, accepted; the dinner elegant indeed, Mrs. Glovern dressed plain, but rich, agreeable people, genteel house. Mr Cutler went out on business after dinner. I spent the afternoon, Mr. Cutler returned just dark, drank tea, we returned to out lodgings.
Friday Morn. Oct. 15th
Just eat breakfast. Mr. Cutler went early on business this morning returned to breakfast, is gone again, expect to go out when he returns, went to see Nancy.
After dinner dressed and walked quite a great way, see the Bridwell, the back of the City Hall, Thex Poor House Saint Paul Church (to walk in this city is a great curiosity to me) then to Mr. Gloves drank tea, then to our lodging then to Mr. Herring, spent a little time, back to our lodging the gentlemen at supper and I went to bed.
Saturday Oct. 10th
Went out early after breakfast first, to the Market (the multitude that attend the Market, the great variety that is for sale, the confusion and yet the regularity quite surprised me) then to the Old Fort, to the great, the elegant building (More says they are equal to any in London) back to the City Hall, home find my cap and bonnet cut off, my [?], went to the shops (the weather fine) to Mr. Peterses merchant, fine agreeable genteel people. Spent the afternoon, Mr. Cutler came in Mr. Drake from New Haven, a number of other gentlemen and ladies handsomely dressed. A French gentleman played upon a base viola, young lady sang a few songs, eat fruit and nuts all cheerful we returned to our lodgings fine fair evening am up stairs writing. Mr. Lewis is eating supper.
Sunday Morning Oct. 17th 9 o’clock
Just returned from St. Paul Church heard a pretty good sermon, see a great many people, some very well dressed; but the church I just admire; I have not dined on our return, walked to the water-side looked at the ship America Monday morn. Pleasanter weather we could not have went yesterday afternoon to Trinity Church, at evening we went to meeting, the house was [?] and twice the people assembled that were collected by day, to me the camp was the greatest curiosity, the house was elegant and handsome, and so light we were able to view the people and even their dress, almost as plainly as if it had been day light; the moon shone bright on all, returned to the streets seemed handsome and the people, many I find do not keep Sunday as we do in the country; though they do not open shop, the gentlemen are out on parties, they collect from door to door, they ride in coaches and walk in parties without the least restraint on account of Sunday, servants and children are all at play, we walked the greatest part of the day, except when in meeting. Monday after dinner, have been all this morn from street to street from shop to shop, we happened in at Mr. Herrings, saw a gentleman of my acquaintance, which I had not seen for nine years, before we went over the City Hall, Mr. Purcell came this morn to invite us to breakfast, we did not go, but shall drink tea there later this afternoon, 9 o’clock drank tea at Mr. Purcells found them very polite agreeable. Quakers, their furniture handsome their table set most elegant, fine moon, warm weather, have walked to the waterside this evening Mr. Cutler had a business event into Mrs. [?] Arobant [?] see Bill Mansfield returned, our people just eating supper. To-morrow morn at 10 o’clock if the wind favors, I expect to leave New York and pretty soon to see my dear little girl. I hope she is asleep by this Friday Oct. 22 10 o’clock . Yet on board the vessel, have been here ever since Tuesday afternoon in sight of New Haven, but I am sick and cannot write.
Sunday 24th arrived at New Haven Friday evening just dark, our companions dispersed, it seemed like the breaking up of a family.
We went to Col. Drakes found their house, and furniture rich and elegant, most agreeable sociable people. Mr. Cutler loaded his team that night. Saterday morning was very pleasant, we did not get out of town till 12 o’clock. Drank tea at Mr. Porters, got home and found the family well at 8 o’clock in the evening.
Feb. 6th 1791
My sister Rachel has been with me two or three months. Porter is gone, Lewis is here. Brother Leman has been to see us several times, this we consider a privilege to live so much in the way of his business as to make his visits more frequent than they otherwise would be. Sister Hopkins and Sister Sheldon have both been here this winter; but our one long absent brother we do not see.
March 1st
Ten days ago which was Feb’y 19th my long absent brother Joel came here from Canady, my Brother L. came here a few days before and told me he was at Dr. Sheldons in Litchfield with his dear little ones, Billy about 10 years old and Polly but 3 dear little children came all the long road of five hundred miles with him this cold season of the year, how they have borne the fatigue or how he alone with only the driver was able to take care of them, I cannot tell; but God tempers the wind to the shorn lambs
my brother came on Friday and drank tea, we spent a long sociable evening, Europe or Canady does not much alter him, true he is older, but his words and looks and manners are still the same. I should known him if I had not expected him though it is more than seven years since I have seen him. He went from here on Saturday and from Dr. Sheldon’s on Sunday with his children into Hartford, expects himself to go on to Boston. Sister Rachel is at Litchfield, poor girl she is very unwell.
May 17th
Brother Joel came here about ten days ago, he came Saturday, remained till the next Wednesday morn he was on his way to Hartford and from there to Canady. (April 17th 1791) On Sunday evening Mr. Smith, Dr. Woodruff and others came in, we spent the time pleasantly enough. Monday evening we walked to Mr. Curtises and spent the evening and Tuesday we spent very sociable at Mr. Smiths; the moon shone bright the weather was warm and clear, the season of the year inviting and my Brothers conversation to me very entertaining, I can feel but I cannot express the satisfaction I took in the company of that long lost brother; but he is gone, he went on Wednesday.
Sister Rachel is here and much better. Sam Belding went last week to live with Mr. Stanley.
March 2nd 1792 Friday 2 o’clock
Brother Joel came here yesterday, is just now gone to Woodbury, from there he expects to visit my Brother Leman at Derby, my Sister Lewis at Milford, then he will proceed to Hartford to visit his dear children, which he left at Dr. Hopkins last Spring. He obtained a Bill from his wife in Nov’r last at Montreal, he is going to Niagara to superintend the building of a new City under Government. Since from Europe so good a man so unfortunate, O my Brother. Nancy bade him good bye, went to school said Mamma would cry when Uncle went home.
March 2nd 1792
The Summer past I went with Mr. Cutler to Derby and Milford, in the Fall to New Haven. Sister Rachel has been with me the greater part of the time, for sixteen months, is now at Hartford. Sister Hannah has a little buy about 3 months old.
March 25th
Brother Joel unexpected to me (for I supposed he would go to Derby) cane here on Monday last before dinner expecting to proceed on to Hartford next morning; but he was very unwell and could not ride that day, we sent for advice, and so far he recovered his health, that he set out very cheerfully this morning for Hartford, and from thence to proceed to Canada. He will most likely see his dear little children this night, it is now 4 o’clock. Mr. Cutler, Lewis and David in the shop; little Anne at School, myself alone by a good fire in the out room. I went to see Rachel for the poor girl is quite unwell. Bro. L. came here last week went to Woodbury, and see Joel, but Hannah will lament she cannot see him, I am sorry.
He lamented that his business would not admit of his seeing all his sisters and of a longer stay. Joel showed me then different coats of Armour which he procured in London of different families; but could not yet find which to establish as his own.
Sept 9th
Dr. Hopkins and Rene, Dr. Sheldon and Huldah was here a few weeks past, Elize went to Milford in the fore part of the summer, died after a distressing sickness of seven or eight weeks at Capt. Lewis’s.
August 20th 1792 Mama was with he when she died. Mr. Cutler is up in the country. Rachel at Hartford, Dr. Sheldon very sick, I fear not like to live. O my poor sister and family so many little children. I am distressed for them.
The Births and Deaths of my Fathers Family Taken from off his Book Nov. 17th 1783
1. Stephen Stone was born Jan. 1st 1747 at Guilford
2. Joel Stone was born Aug. 7th. 1749 at Guilford
3. Laeming Stone was born Dec. 29th. 1750 at Guilford
My father removed from Guilford to Litchfield with his family April 25th. 1751
4. Liza was born Feb. 13th. 1753 New Stile
5. Rene was born Jan. 9th. 1755
6&7 Dothe & Hannah Dec. 25 1756
8. Huldah Nov. 11th. 1759
9. Rachel Nov. 22nd.1761
Stephen died April 22nd 1765
My Mamma do Nov. 9th 1767
Liza do Feb. 24th. 1768
My father was married to Deliverance Chapman May 12th 1768
The Births of the children which my father had by his last wife.
1. Stephen born April 23rd. 1769
2. Dan do June 23rd 1771
3. Derrick do Jan. 25th. 1774
4. Liza do March 10th 1776
5. Clary do Oct. 28th 1781
7. Polly do Feb. 4th 1784
Died
Liza Aug. 20th 1792
Dothe Sept. 3rd. 1803
Huldah
A Loose Leaf
When at my fathers in 1784 I took this book and drawded it off and now I wish I had not for I had rather see it wrote in different hands and with different pen and ink than all in one.
Younglove Cutler was born at Killingsby Oct 18th 1750. Dothee Stone was born Dec. 25th 1756 was married to younglove Cutler Dec. 16 1784.
Annie Bishop Cutler was born March 23rd 1786
Elizabeth Stone Cutler was born Nov. 14th 1792
I went to live at Washington then Judee, sometime in Febrary 1773 Rene went to live with him. Leman went to live at Litchfield South Farms sometime in Jan’y 1773. I went to live with him the 5th of the next Novr. In Leml. Harris’ chamber till 9th August 1775 he moved to his own house which he bought of Freeman Gibb. I went with him and kept his house for him.